The spring and summer months are by far my favourite months of the year. The sun shinning down on me is warm and welcoming. Patios are open and everyone just seems happier.
That's just it. I'm happier in those months. As fall starts to roll around, it gets dark out much earlier and the air is colder. I find I'm not as bubbly as usual. Events that occurred in the summer, that I was able to ignore, are now upsetting me and I can't let them go. I start to question myself. My life. All of a sudden, it feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders. All I want to do is cry.
But, this isn't uncommon for me.
A few years ago, I discovered that I get SAD (also known as Seasonal Affective Disorder). The dark skies and cold weather have a negative effect on me and my emotions. Yet, you may never know this since I'm fine when I'm around other people. It's when I'm alone that I feel like everything is falling apart around me.
As light therapy is said to be a treatment for SAD, years ago, I turned to tanning beds. Although I was never looking directly at the light being omitted by the bed, I could sense it on me and I drank in the UV warmth. This became a dangerous addiction though and I eventually forced myself to stop.
Since I've never been willing to be put on medication for this, I had to find other alternatives. SAD makes me feel extremely tired and causes me to gobble down carbs at an unhealthy rate, so I wanted to find something to boost my energy and suppress any potential weight gain. Which is why, last fall, I joined a gym.
Working out helped keep my energy levels high and kept me in a well lit environment. The health benefits to this are obvious too.
While there has been no scientific study done to prove that working out helps control SAD, it has certainly been beneficial for me. Although feelings of depression still occur, particularly on gloomy days, my spirit is generally much higher. Which is exactly why my butt is back in the gym now! Being happy and healthy is important to me so I'll do what it takes for it to stay that way.
Are you effected by gloomy days?
What do you do to stay happy?